it really gets depressing when you hear body shaming rants from girls about other girls. GURL WE GOTTA (T)WERK TOGETHA.
Hold my hand Ooh, baby, it’s a long way down to the bottom of the river.
Photography: Luke Milton
Hotpants by Tentacle Threads
1. What do I absolutely love in life?
Ever since I was a child my mum said my big thing in life is ‘to help people because i am such a kind and caring person’. I’m glad she instilled that into my personality because I’m well on my way to being a psychologist, or youth worker, not really sure where my talents/interests lie. I get a lot of love from doing that, being compassionate to all animals, including humans. My basis for human interaction is to always be compassionate when you can.
I love it when life is good, but I also appreciate it when it’s not because I know it will not last forever.
2. What are my greatest accomplishments in life so far?
At first I’d like to say my academic stuff like my psychology degree but that’s not really where i find accomplishment. I mean I’m very happy that I got those marks and that degree but I think there is more to life than that, and accomplishment is not levelled on what degrees you have.
I’d probably say that I’m pretty proud of how better I’ve gotten in terms of mentality, my anxiety etc. I was in a bad place in my teenage years for the most part but then again who isn’t. I’ve grown a lot as a person since then, but I do still have a long way to go, but that’s okay :)
3. What would I stand for if I knew no one would judge me?
I don’t know, I think I stand up for the things that matter to me the most. I don’t care as much about what people think of me when I stand up for what I believe in. I stand up for animal rights, human rights, and the environment. I’d probably protest a bit more though!
4. If my life had absolutely no limits and I could have it all and do whatever I wanted, what would I choose to have and what would I choose to do?
Hmmm. I imagine something like a comfortable house, that is pretty much not extravagent, average sized. I’d like to live there with someone/people that I care about. I wouldn’t mind a decently sized shoe collection.
I know that when I retire my goal is to buy a big farm and rescue animals, but that will be a lot of work, but I think it would be worth it. I’d love to just be friends with all the animals that are there, and not want to get anything from them. It would be somewhere where I wouldn’t mind finishing my life. It would be very peaceful.
5. What would I do if I had one billion dollars?
I’d figure out how much I need for myself to survive then give most of it to charities. I’d give a lot to my family, and to my good friends. I’d probably put it in a trust fund and people can apply for the money and I’ll give it away on a case by case basis. So it can be for homeless people, people that are just low on funds, people that want to start a business in something they love etc. I’d get a lot of happiness out of that. I’ve never liked money, I’ve never liked having it, it stresses me out. But it does stress me out not having it too but I think it reminds me to be grateful of what I have, and be smart in what I buy and not spend 100000+ dollars on a suit or something stupid like that.
6. Who do I admire most in the world?
I’d say my mum. She supports me in everything I do even though it may not amount to anything, she is there to guide me when I’m being stupid, she has spent so much of her life and still does being devoted to my happiness and the happiness of my siblings. Both of my parents give 110% when it comes to us and I could not be more thankful for having such an amazing family. My entire family in fact have always been there for me and helped me financially, mentally and emotionally. They just have this infinite amount of compassion and it literally brings me to tears.
I have such a privelage. I know so many people that have shit upbringings and I really feel for them because to not have support from your family must be so hard. I’ve felt incredibly privelaged my entire life with the amount of love and luck I’ve received, so I think another reason why I aim to devote my life to helping others is to be there for them so that they know that there are people out there that care and love them and will devote 110% of their lives to bring them happiness.
I knew that writing this would be a bit emotional but I didn’t think I’d cry. Don’t worry it’s not unhappy crying :,)
melancholic.
had a nap today.
i ate too many hashbrowns.
but now its night time.
Okay guys this is me smiling. I think I look wayyyy too excited.
i moved my room around. I pushed the bed over to the side so i have more room for rolling around on the floor with my cats and whatnot.
Okay this is pretty personal but whatever.
I’ve realised today I am actually the epitomy of a commitment phobe.
Whenever i think about being with someone forever i just think of a prison, i just feel like i’d be stuck there, with someone, and i hate it. I never really thought I got scarred from my previous relationship but I guess it did it without me knowing.
To me he was perfect, he was the love of my life, he was my life. But now he’s not and I cannot face that I should be finding someone else that will fill that, and I honestly don’t want to. I don’t want to ever go through such terror, such anxiety, such overwhelming pain again.
Whenever I have any feelings towards someone, the moment they either take interest in me or show some form of seriousness in a relationship i run. I run so fast. I also give myself a gigantic list of who my ideal person is and make sure that person is pretty much impossible so I get to justify not being with people.
I give myself so many stupid reasons to not like someone it’s just plain crazy.
And I don’t want to just date someone without the motivation to commit later on because I just can’t lie to them like that. I can’t just say to myself i’ll only date them for a while, I don’t want to commit to anything over a year.
I just have no idea.
One of my BFFS and I are both vegans and have been contemplating getting matching tattoos to mark our (wait for it) veganiversaries (i’m going onto 7, she’s five, but it’s also my 10th year vegetarianiversary).
We were thinking either getting cute little cartoon tofu, or retro looking hummus, or maybe just some free falling chickpeas. Neither of us really want the VEGAN slogan on things, since it just invites so much unnecessary attention. Plus we love tofu and hummus (and food in general) more than life itself so.
Decisions decisions!
alliwantishapp-y:
too relevant
BAM right in the feels.